Comparison: The Thief of Joy

The past 10 days I’ve been a bit banged up. Yesterday I deleted my Strava.

They say half the battle in marathon training is actually making it to the starting line healthy. Well if you would have asked me 24 hours ago, I would have told you I was probably going to withdraw from the TCSN NYC Marathon (I was a bit emotional and possibly overreacting)…now I’m not convinced I’m out of the woods BUT my foot has made some promising steps in the right direction including a 65 minute run almost completely pain free this morning.

So getting back to the title of this blog post and why I deleted Strava from my phone…

Even before this hiccup in training, I couldn’t wait to finish my run and upload the data to my Strava. Since moving to Alabama, a lot of stuff has changed but I was also hitting 4-5 weeks of consistent training and workouts at a level I hadn’t done in other buildups. I was leaving sessions super excited about where my fitness was (even if it felt “harder” than I thought it should’ve…that’s normal with tired legs) but later on in the day (post-nap of course) I would find myself scrolling through Strava like it was Twitter. I would see workouts that other people were doing and it instantly made me second guess my morning sessions and effort. Was it enough? Should I be doing more?

This constant comparison game would leave me on edge and less confident in my own fitness. The rational side of me knows that no buildup between two people is same and just because one workout works for one person doesn’t mean it will work for me.

Sometimes it’s important to take a step back and be okay with the person in the mirror…it’s important to be okay with where you are at in the process rather than focusing all of your energy on where you want to be. Athletes at all levels are guilty of this at points in their career but no one shares that because they don’t want to come across as weak or not tough enough.

I do believe there are many benefits of using Apps like Strava and I will probably go back to using mine after NYC but for now, I need to focus on me and what my body needs.

One thought on “Comparison: The Thief of Joy

  1. YES TO THIS! I deleted Strava from my phone and never look at it now. I use Garmin Connect and literally look at nothing but my data. I had this problem, the comparison to people not even in the same SPORT as me! Right?! Silly!!
    I am so much more focused on myself and MY TRAINING now, which is what matters to me. 🙂 I’m happy to hear you’re healing up. Happy running.

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